smalllll update

okay guys… i KNOW its only been about 2 days… maybe 3? since i posted my rant… honestly im feeling better still kinda mad i didnt get closure but oh well… BUT im getting my life back on track after bed rotting all weekend :p 

honestly i think i needed the time to just sit and mourn it and like be all in my feelings but like… those days i was bed rotting i got a major migraine and thats when i realized i was basically causing myself physical and mental pain over a guy that didnt deserve my time so ive decided tonight (since my migraine is gone) im gonna lock in on school work and finally shower and clean my room bc i hadn’t realized how bad it had gotten over three days… and my poor baby (my cat that basically lives in my room) doesnt need to see me like that or live like that… 

sometimes i feel like princess carolyn from bojack horseman because i gave myself a pep talk last night like she did to herself you know? shes literally my spirit animal and i thought of her when i had the realization that i needed to get my life back together… anyways yeah this is my update as promised!! more to come soon when i actually become okay with the silence… small note: never let your lover become a part of your daily routine because it will kill you when they leave, and if you do let them and if they do leave i promise you will get stuff together it honestly just takes time 

special thanks to my moots on here for being supportive and listening to my rants <3