So is my fault now?!

Hey guys, this is my first blog ever!!! I wanted to make something more cute or happy, but i REALLY want to vent with strangers #bestterapyever. Anyways, i have this girl in my school, let's call her "A". A is a girl that i really wanted to have a friendship with, we been study together since 6-7 years old and we have so much in common!! A and i have the same group of friends (that i got excluid last year and makes me remind of my traumas with exclusion ans bullyng in 4th grade). A and i was getting really close to each other, but some months ago OF NO WHERE she stars to act like we had a fight, been mean to me and acting like i was disturbing her, while me was like "Omg, wft i did???" I started to ask her and she makes faces like this:  And says that is "nothing happen" and she's "normal" (like BITCH YOU TREAT ME LIKE I'M YOUR ENEMY IN LIFE!!) so, i started to ask for my other friends and one of them (let's call her G) Said that she vent abt a dream that we started to be away from each other and she got panicked and that's why she was acting like that to me (i know that people have diffrente ways to lead with this kinda of stuff, but when you dream is about you end up a friendship IS NOT LOGIC YOU START TO TRY KEEP IT??). Well i understad but i make a LOOOONG text message saying sorry and other stuff, and she was like "ok, sorry. But don't mind about this, is was just a bad mood" i went like "Ok!! I'll not" and the next days started to be a lil bit better. You mind think that is the end but IS NOT she still treat bad AND GET WORST THIS DAYS!!! And i started to get in panick again, i was getting excluied again and i end up crying all night again....Well, on this Thursday we got a conversation with our all group of friends abt a problem between A and other friend, they have their time and end up well, but me and A started, the class end up and we didn't resolve. So i message her and she said that she was getting a FUCKING GRUDGE AGAINST ME FOR NO REASON SINCE THAT LONG MESSAGE OF SORRYY?????? I got really mad abt and she was like "i swear i don't want to feel like that" like ok, but you want to change????? I LOVED YOU, I PAYED YOUR FUCKING MINECRAFT GAME, INVENTED YOU TO MY BIRTHDAY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT YOU LOVE GEEK EVENTS AND I GAVE YOU A GIFT IN MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I spend money, time, emontions in our friendship, for now JUST.NOW. you say that you hates every single moment of my caring????? I said that she treat me bad and she said "But you treated me bad 2 and i didn't say nothing" BITCH, THAT HAPPEN ONE.DAY ONE DAY MEANS 4 MONTHS FOR U???? I said im sorry and she said too, but i don't think she said abt all of it. It was a empty sorry.... G said that i don't have to run for this friendship, and her gulty abt will not be a excuse for treating me like this. And she's right! But, and the same time, i feel soo hurt. It's like she never cared abt me anyway...i criend a lot after that, honest, i never felt so dumb. A also don't want me knowing abt her problems, not like a protec way like i though, is in a way that she doen't think i'm her friend enough to know. And alfter that pain, she still acting like nothing happens.....i felt so angry, and sad and, i just wanted to be your friend for once. I used to love you, yk. And now you says in a way that is my fault?? FUCK.YOU!!!!