soft little crash out awe

I am so fucking jealous and easily rage baited. I crashed out earlier because I was scrolling on #emo and saw an old friend I had a crush on, day ruined immediately. I think I only wanted their skin. I also cried because my mother (love her) turned my music down on the way home to call someone. LIKE PLEASE THIS IS MY ONLY HOPE I WILL CRASH THIS CAR!!?!?!?!!??! I am also like yearning for a relationship but also like I dont gaf enough to do anything romantic. hmph. I fucking love music holy shit. I wish I could bone sound waves or peoples voices. I think I am self centered. am I self centered or do I just not involve myself in other things. All I do is job, self time, look for things to fill my time, and buy things. No future plans. I fucking love venting holy shit hi guys I dont believe people read this. please send me beautiful emo love songs