solo

what hurts in life is that even when you have "loving" friends and family, they will never understand your life. i feel like that's what truly makes me feel alone. sometimes, i just want to disappear because i find that having friends can often be a chore for me. i love them of course, but i feel like nobody can give me the same love that me and my conscience give me. i've been hate-crimed and shamed from the outside world, and i just want to void myself of human interaction overall. i feel like life also keeps trying to push me more towards just, nullifying my friends and becoming a solo rider