strange how people change

sometimes i wonder how much of a person ive changed, sometimes i feel like im just the same person, sometimes i feel like ive changed completely, sometimes i feel like ive stayed the same and some things didnt

theres been a few times when i looked back at my old messages and realize that i have changed a bit, i used to type with a LOT of kaomojis [like XD T_T O_O -_- >_<], ok i take that back i still use a LOT of kaomojis now, i like using ones with noses :-) [i also like using >_>" ?_? :-3 :-D :-O etc etc blah blah blah], i just dont rlly like using the ones i used in the past since in a way it reminds me of some,, well not so swell times

speaking of not so swell times, occasionally i listen to music i used to listen to waay back ago, like back in middle school or early 9th grade, usually i dont really like listening to them for that reason, i associate them with some tough times in my life

i used to be reaaaally big on msi, i think some of their songs are average at best now, but oh my god i was such a shit person when i used to listen to msi a lot

also im so sorry to any ewy fans out there, but i genuinely despise ewys music. its not even that their music is bad, its actually really good, but i cant help but to associate the music with some of the worst times of my life, no matter HOW HARD i try to separate it from those times, its impossible to. tho i can make a single exception to a single song from them since it doesnt make me badly uncomfortable and ill listening to it [for the most part]

same goes for multiple songs or music artists, theyre genuinely good but its just forever associated with those terrible times, theyre forever ruined for me, its so so SO uncomfortable for me to listen to that music now, i get ill and nauseous listening to them, its TORTURE!!!!

ok done with that whole ass music rant. in a way, im kind of glad ive changed, i may not be the best person now but im definitely a better person then i was years ago

i forgot what i was going to say cuz of that whole music rant, ill update this later maybe, ok? ok.