studying my ass off. LITERALLY.

I don't really care if this is tmi but I developed a fucking hemmorhoid from how much I've been studying recently (4 hours on weekdays and 6 hours on weekends, no breaks) and I somehow still feel unprepared for the upcoming mock exam season I have. what's worse is that the stakes are super high because these grades literally determine whether I get an offer from my dream university or not. the government is so fucking smart for piling all this stress on a teenager 🫩 

sometimes I still question whether the struggle is worth it but sertraline has dulled my thinking so I can't spiral like I used to