summer break so far

oh man its been a bit crazy so far. not like crazy horrible or anything but its just been a lot. It's been nice having time to work on more craft projects, im currently working on making some mini skirts that kinda look like corsets. so thats been nice. its also given me so much time to work on music and focus on lyric writing. my friend and I have this one song that we're brewing up and im really excited for it, we have some of the lyrics written but its just tricky trying to piece it together. it's going to be a song about having peace in faith and also taking in nature/circle of life. kinda imagine cico buff by the cocteau twins but more guitar and drums. i'm soooo excited for it!! Although it has really sucked, I haven't been able to get a job :/ the job market is crap anyway. I guess its not a big deal I mean schools gonna be back in two months and I don't wanna burn myself out but at the same time... its just so annoying rejection after rejection. I had an interview at sallys beauty place the other day, it went so well i really thought i got it but, i was wrong. oh well, its given me more time to work on things and take in more life. 

although, something that has happened during all of this, about 4 days ago i distanced myself from a friend i really deemed to be very close to me, we've been friends 6 years. There had been a lot changing in our friendship along with her and I living two very different lives and also our personalities have changed since then.(we also just,,, dont really get along anymore)  I was the one who spoke up but it kinda exploded and turns out she doesn't agree and thinks we're fine. Augh idk anyway it was a whole thing and she ended up calling me toxic and a bad friend for all this????? (even though, i was just being nice about it all. even though shes been toxic so many times to me, saying she cant picture me in a relationship, only viewing family members as walking money bags and just a whole other bunch of mumbo jumbo that i dont wanna get into right now) anyway that kinda caused me to spiral and honestly one of the worst episodes ive had in awhile. because now i just feel like some bad friend even though anybody that knows me knows im not. so for now we're not talking but honestly, im fine with it from all she said to me earlier... im just kinda done. 

anyway enough of that, im SOOO excited for next month!! I'm going down to Tennessee to visit my best friend!! X3 EEK! im so excited its going to be so fun we have a bunch of plans, tons of thrifting and crafting all that good stuff. we're going to a flyleaf concert as well which'll be fire.  

thats about it for now, thanks for readin all this random stuff, 

I'm gonna hit the hay because i'm ATTEMPTING to keep my sleep schedule at least semi decent throughout the summer, plus I have a birthday party to attend to tomorrow, so i gotta not show up like a zombie. (even though.. i already look like one a good chunk of the time) 

xoxo

Annajoy