Summer rant

Time passes by so much more when you're not thinking about it, the whole summer I had planned to do so much, but there is still a lot I haven't been able to do. Which sucks cause I only have two weeks before school start and my friends won't be home to do half of those stuff. I also don't have much money left, so won't be able to do much anyways. If I had planned more the things I wanted to do, then I wouldn't have spent half of the summer in my room. But its so easy to get distracted ones you open your phone. It's almost as it wraps you in your own space. 

Now I just need to find a way to do all the stuff I NEED to before school starts, like dying my hair back. Idk what colour, like I really want to dye my whole hair pink, but I also feel like thats a bit risky when starting in a new school. The other option right now is dying it back black, but I feel like it will be easier with pink as then its easier to find the correct shade as my original hair is black, but in a golden brown way. 

Enough about hair though. The summer has been pretty fun though, I've been catching up on all the shows I want to watch and been hanging out a lot with one of my more long distance friends(not long distance at all she just doesn't live near me) and I've been going more out of my comfort zone with doing more colourful makeup and ofc dying my hair. It feels like im me again lol, I think summer is the time where I truly kind of blossom as the pressure from school and the people there goes away. When school ends it feels like I truly get to float, but it has to end at some point and it's getting closer and closer. 

Im lowkey really scared of starting school as idk anyone who's beginning in my school. So I'm really scared of not being able to make any friends. Im really socially awkward and pretty sure I have social anxiety. When I started middle school I was really scared to talk to the people in my class and no one actually tried being my friend except the one friend I had, so I ended up being mostly alone in my class In most year of middle school. I DO NOT want that to happen again, so I will try to be better, but meeting new people just sucks. Now I also don't have a friend so it's even worse. But I shouldn't be that negative, Im prob overthinking everything lol. Hopefully I will make atleast one friend I like, but I will just have to wait and see...