swallow

Why should I belittle myself?
so I can be more easily digested
When that’s not what I want?

No part of me wants to be easy.
I don’t want to slide down your throat in submission.
I want to be the bone that gets stuck—
the one you can’t get rid of,
no matter what,
stealing your breath,
blocking your rejection.

Yes, I know I’m a lot.
But why would I want somebody
Who is not as much as me?

I want to be loved—every part of me.
That includes the parts some people can’t swallow.

And losing those people hurts,
But I will never lessen myself
to keep somebody who is okay with anything
But all of me again.