terrible classmates

i've switched schools in september because my old school was just too much with terrible teachers and subjects, now i'm studying computer science, which i've always wanted to learn.

the new subjects are great, but the classmated are some of the worst people i've ever had the displeasure of meeting in my life.

they're loud, gross, careless, all boys (which isn't really a problem in itself, but being the only afab there they treat me like i'm not even a human), disrespectful and just generally unplesant to be around.

i really didn't mind at first since i was happy to start learning about things that actually interest me, but it's only been one week since school started and it's slowly becoming hell for me.

i already really dislike school in general, the system here is incredibly overwhelming and disorganized, to the point they notified me about my entrance exams a week before they were supposed to happpen (i actually have my first one tomorrow, for which i haven't studied because they really expected me to learn two years worth of material for five different subjects within a week, sure.)

so, adding to that, my classmates make it all the more unbearable. there's one nice guy there but he's extrmely passive to it all and just tells me that "they act the way they do but are actually nice and harmless", i really dont understand if he genuinely believes it or if he's trying to convince himself.

they randomly gather around me and him and start making comments about us and take photos when they think i can't tell, even if it's obvious as hell.

today one of them very "subtly" pointed and laughed at my scars and then got mad because apparently i was the crazy one taking offense from something he "didn't do".

i can't even point it out to teachers becuase they wont give a shit, maybe our literature teacher would care, but i know they'll only behave in his class so there's no point in doing anything.

i really don't want to drop out or have more problems with school like last year, but skipping (something i never did) is starting to become a really tempting idea in the morning.

i'm also afraid they're gonna become even more annoying if i turn out to actually be autistic like i thought (i'm getting tested on the 13th of october).

if the bullying (which i dont feel like describing, since its probably pretty gross to read about) really does get worse i don't really see any other solution than do online schol or completely give up on it, which is extremely sad because up until a year ago i used to be at the top of my classes.

the grammar and spelling are probably terrible but i'm way too lazy to use caps and switch my autocorrect from italian to english