the 13th (poem)

years of pain, years of tiredness 

will cease in just a few weeks 

struggling with lethargy, depression and apathy 

i cant wait to finally have peace! 

ive run out of the energy needed to have empathy 

ive grown bored and tired, im wandering emptily 

fascinated by self-sabotage! a destructive tendency 

i'd like to indulge in something so heavenly 

the 13th will be such a beautiful day! 

all suffering and pain of mine will finally go away 

have i gone crazy? i don't care enough to know 

there are so many beautiful, wonderful ways to go

i don't care about anyone or anything anymore

no one's ever been close to me, i'll laugh forevermore 

completely and entirely alienated from all humans 

ive always been as distant as can be from society 

this is exactly how my death was meant to be!