the cannon event of missing the one good guy you did wrong

so i actually miss my ex so fucking much his code name is big sexy -side note my sister and me came up with it when we were drunk. he also knows we call him that so we'll just call him that for now, but i cant help but start to miss him everytime i get alone for long periods of time. Just really about how strong our connection used to be and still is after 3 years of us not talking just because i chose someone else like a dummy😓ive always regretted not choosing big sexy, he was the only m#n ive ever been with that loved me the way i loved him. i sooooo badly wish we could just skip the talking stage right now and get back together but thats my own fault 🙃, so im gonna wait and do right to him this time i dont caree what i have to do for this fr trust me that rls i got into instead of staying w him was my karma and ive souly learned that hes always been my person i was just to afraid to admit it because of everyone that me and him know. a lot of people dont like me and a lot of people cause drama into my personal life on purpose and it ruins a lot but hes neverrr cared, i just did to much at the time but im more grown than that now and just care about being with the person who i actually genuinely want🥲 ladies if you have a good man do not do him wrong i promise its not worth it in the long run you will live in regret and still love him, he was my first love and the only good m#n mane what the hell was wrong w me get me my man back home soon tho i promise im a changed wise woman now