The cuts on my body

This is one of the first times I've ever talked about this anywhere. I have many SH scars on the left side of my body that happened when I was younger. I cover them with arm sleeves even in the summer, I hate them so much. It’s not about the memories or whatever, I actually don't remember almost anything, and I would never do it again, The thing is that they just don't fit with me now. I can't look at them now, it's like, why are those even here? I don't wanna be judged by people. My character is just not that. What should I even do? There is literally nothing to do about it, sometimes I try to not use the sleeves, but it looks so much out of place and weird and i just hate it.

I feel like since i am guy this makes all even worse, I have almost never seen this in a guy, i saw girl’s scars a lot yes even being extrovert and all despite it, but since i am a guy i think it’s impossible to ignore.