the internet is so lonely

when i was a teen in like 2020-2023 it was sooo much easier to meet people online and maintain friendships. ever since i turned 17 it just became so difficult and now i feel pretty alone most of the time online. 

on one hand i really want to meet people and maintain relationships but on the other hand im scared to and im also way too busy to commit to most friendships. its a really weird place to be in. 

thankfully i do have my partner and a few online friends ive met through them, but aside from that i do feel chronically lonely on the internet.

feeling obviously increased when im on ponytown because that really is such a clique-y site lol