the square root of 4 wisdom teeth

TW: Mentions of Blood (i mean im talking about my wisdom teeth getting removed)

OKAY so basically earlier today i had both wisdom teeth removed from my lower jaw because it was tryna damage a nerve to put it simply. ngl for the days approaching i was PETRIFIED but now that i look back on it, it wasnt that bad actually!
Therefore, my logical conclusion is to yap my ass off about it because due to the gauze in my mouth ive lost my freedom of speech and i wont be able to talk for 1-2ish days depending on the bleeding (and as of now its REALLY BAD)

right so earlier this morning before i left i had to take this pill i cant remember the name of,,, but it was supposed to ease my nerves and make me less aware of my surroundings (something along the lines of that) and honestly i was SCARED SCARED,,

i said it in another post but to quickly summarise im not actually too afraid off the actual surgery - like im nervous sure but its kinda just like an 'oh well!' thing
HOWEVER. i was absolutely TERRIFIED of the kind of anesthesia(?) theyll be using. 
ive always hated the thought of not being aware of what was happening to me, so when i signed the consent form to have the surgery done i practically begged for them not to put me to sleep.... obviously they couldnt do the surgery without me being on some sort of anesthesia so instead i got the stuff that makes it so you cant feel pain and the medication that makes you kinda loopy and stupid.

look i can handle the surgery but i CANNOT HANDLE IF I SAY SOMETHING STUPID, EMBARASSING, OR SECRATIVE WHILE ON THE MEDS like im scared of that to an insane degree


SO ANYWAYS 
flashforward an hour im laying on the dental chair thing and the dentist comes in with the dental assistant to start the extraction. my heart hurt so fucking bad i was genuinely so terrified,,,, but anyways GET THIS. 
THEY PULL OUT FOUR HUGE ASS NEEDLES TO MAKE MY JAW NUMB AND I MEAN FOUR HUGE ASS NEEDLES
like imagine a flu shot needle, but its doubled in length and its as thick as a prescription medication bottle AND THEN ON TOP OF THAT THE ACTUAL THIN NEEDLE PART WAS HUMONGOUS I ALMOST CRIED 
but you know fuck it we ball so
so basically two needles per side of my jaw, and so i just let them do their thing but i all will say that whatever the fuck they were doing with the second needle HURT LIKE HELL

after we let my jaw finish getting numb and stuff the dentist started on the actual surgical part! because both teeth hadnt erupted, they had to cut open my gum/jaw to reach it unfortunately, HOWEVER that anesthesia was the mvp cause i genuinely couldnt feel jackshit
at most it was just a really hard pressure i felt when the scalpel was in my mouth and stuff.

during the entire procedure i genuinely just stared straight up at the light above me and listened to the dentist and dental assistance yap to eachother,,,,,,, i was planning to just wear headphones and listen to some banger songs i was recommended but i ditched that idea last second because i was scared i wasnt gonna hear something important  and i wanted to be fully aware

the only notable things to mention during the whole ordeal was that:

1. when they were shoving all the needles in my mouth, according to the technician i was "extremely calm and chill" which i would argue i wasnt because i was fucking panicking in my head with a high ass heartrate - but i guess that just didnt translate into facial expressions so hehe guys i swear im super cool and 100% nonchalant

2. when they were using the drill to cut up a tooth, to me it sounded like the stereotypical alien abducting cows sound effect

3. during the first tooth extraction too much blood amnd water fell into my throat and i ended up having a coughing fit (im so sorry this will haunt me each time before i go to bed)

but YEAH THEN IT FINISHED!!!! they stitched me back up,shoved gauze in my mouth, handed me some icepacks and sent me off on my merry way

literally right after i left the dental clinic i learned that those videos of people who say embarrassing shit after a wisdom tooth extraction are in most cases the people who chose to be asleep during the procedure, and considering i was fully aware the entire surgery i can confirm i did NOT say any stupid shit! HIP HIP HOORAY

so now i just have to eat a shit ton of medication for the next few weeks and all should be well. 

HOWEVER. since i had not too many ideas on what to eat since no solide foods. so just as a cherry on top i will give you guys a list of everything ive eaten today.
1 - straight chicken broth
2 - one of those fancy pints of icecream that cost 6$ for some reason (a little treat)
3 - my dad came home with burgers so i deadass took a burger, fries, and some hot water and threw it into a blender to eat. i am not exaggerating i genuinely did this. surprisingly it did work though and i wouldve taken a photo of it IF IT DIDNT LOOK LIKE CAT VOMIT?? like it genuinely looked so bad that when i was eating it i need to actively not look at the bowl or my spoon. but fuck it we ball it tasted like the essence of a burger joint and i am NOT one to waste food so i did infact finish it all :)

special thanks to those people who watched me crashout over this surgery for the past couple days