The struggle is REAL

college is actually so much harder than i thought it would be, and i don’t even mean the work half the time...

i feel like nobody really talks about how difficult it is to start somewhere completely new and try to make friends all over again. literally everyone says college is where you meet your people and make all these memories, but nobody talks about how awkward and lonely it can feel when you’re still trying to find your place and its been like 5 weeks and still feel out of place and everyone has conformed to groups and you are just sat on the side looking in.

making friends is genuinely so difficult when you don’t know who to talk to, whether people actually want to get to know you, or whether you’re just forcing conversations. i have tried to talk to people in my lessons but they just block me off. i just want to meet people who are into the same bands as me and same things so i can take people to concerts with me and not dragging my poor family with me who evidently hate what i listen to. sometimes it feels like everyone else has already found their people and you’re just there trying to figure everything out.

i hate how much overthinking comes with it too. like, did i talk too much? was i being awkward? should i have said something different? why does making friends have to feel like such a complicated thing like i swear i never been so confused and panicked in my life..

i know these things take time, but it’s hard when you’re putting yourself out there and still don’t feel like you’ve properly found your place yet. i just want college to feel comfortable instead of feeling like i’m constantly trying to work out where i fit in and who finds what weird and who has the same humor as me. because seriously how do you even know if someone is like the same humor and same music taste if like everyone just looks the other way. when im in the hallways there are so many cool af looking people and i just like scream on the inside to just go up to them, but then what do i  even say when i just randomly go up to them???? like uhhh hello?

anyway, rant over. if anyone else has struggled with making friends at college, especially when starting somewhere new, how did you get through it? does it genuinely get easier? and does anyone have any actual tips for making friends without feeling so awkward all the time? because i could really use some advice!!!!!