The Struggle of being AroAce

I'm Aroace, meaning I don't experience sexual or romantic attraction for other people. Of course the sexuality is a spectrum and some may still experience some attraction but for me it's really nothing. No matter the gender or apperance. I just don't feel that 'want' towards people you could say. But despite knowing that fact about myself for roughly 2 years at this point, I sometimes wish that I would just be normally attracted to people like seemingly everyone else.

An example would be sexual jokes or teasing/flirting. Whenever I talk about things and they could interpretet as something sexual, people are quick to laugh about it and tease me which just makes me really uncomfortable. But whenever I express my feelings on the matter they just tell me "Oh come on, we can't help it" or "It's just a joke don't be so sensitive". I do realize that it's meant to be a joke and I''m not forbidding them from making these jokes but it would just be respectful towards me if they didn't make them in my vicinity or about me. I just hate imagining myself in any kind of sexual or romantic situations. It just feels weird.

Another thing is that I always feel left out when people talk about their crushes or partners. When Killinya was younger, they thought they didn't have any crushes because they were gay. But then we didn't develop any crushes on girls either....So that answered the question.
I don't blame my friends for talking about their love life about me, I love every excuse for them to talk to me. I feel happy for them too! But...deep down I just feel, lost, like I missed something important that should have already crossed my path ages ago. But it just never did.

All in all I can't say I really hate being AroAce. It has tons of benefits. Like not having to be a part of relationship dramas, being happy with just your friends alone or being able to have tons of anime figures at home and not being seen as weird. It's just another struggle that looms over me, like things do for all of us. Such is the way of life.

Mkay sorry for the more serious tone, I just came back from a situation that involved all of these problems I have and I just wanted to vent about it I guess.
Aaaaaaaanywaaaaaays, stay safe, stay hydrated and don't forget.......

I'M WITH YOU IN THE DAAAAAAAARK!!!! /ref