the worst day of my life but the best night ever

my chemical romance just closed the uk leg of their lltbp tour and i went :DD !! genuinely the greatest night of my life but the journey there was horrific and me and my mum genuinely could've died.

okay so we leave at 1pm right, we have a heatwave at the moment so it was really hot out. the car drives fine and we're listening to a playlist that i hand crafted for hours (i was really proud of it) and then we hit traffic.

A small light comes on to indicate that the car is overheating, we assumed it'd be fine and that it'd cool down eventually. then the car started to smoke and there was a burning smell coming from it. we pull over to the side of the motorway and nearly hit a motorcyclist trying to do so due to panic. that was also the same guy who helped us and told us what to do in this situation.

so we sat for about half an hour with the bonnet open and then made our way again. or tried to. the car started to overheat and smoke again literally about a minute or so afterwards. so we were continuously on and off of the road for about 4 hours straight.

it was 30 degrees there was no shade and eventually we had no water. i started to feel lightheaded and dizzy. then that turned into an anxiety attack and both me and my mum were on the brink of heat exhaustion. there's nothing we could've done other than wait and try and cope the best we could. it was fucking terrifying.

eventually we got off the motorway and the car started to cool down. the fan and stopped working so no air was getting to the heat pump (whatever that means im not a car person). so every time we got stuck in traffic the car started to heat up again. this was all happening when we were about 15 minutes away from wembley stadium.

we got to the tesco just outside wembley and managed to give the car an hours stop and get something to eat but both of us were so fucking scared and traumatised that we barely could. we got water and air conditioning though and that's the most important thing!! we also met this really nice person who'd already been to the glasgow show and decided they wanted to go to this one too!! thank you for letting us dumb everything on you and we're sorry haha!!

we went back to the car and drove off. we were mostly okay until we got to the traffic for parking and there was nowhere to pull over for a while so we just had to sit and pray it was horrifying. eventually we pulled over and my mum decided that we had to just wait until the traffic was over which horrified me because like. what if i miss the opening acts i was so upset.

my mum transferred me my ticket and said i could walk up on my own if i wanted. i felt awful and checked multiple times if she was sure but she said she wanted me to because it was easier on her and stuff which makes sense honestly.

i missed anthony green's set unfortunately but i still got to see sunny day real estate which was really exciting because they played all the songs i wanted! although the guys next to me were speaking loudly and talking about emotional hardcore/post hardcore bands like one of the bands they were talking about weren't on stage that second. 

anyway i managed to grab even more water in the break between sdre and mcr and met a really cool person who asked me what time the sets are and that was a really fun interaction!! tbh everyone i interacted with last night was so nice i don't understand people who hate this fandom so much!! 

also the yea nay signs? amazing fans genuinely saved so many ppl from overheating lmfao. anyway my mum arrived a few minutes before it started AND THEN IT STARTED!!!!

i loved every single moment of it i felt so cool knowing every single lyric front to back like yeah im autistic as fuck about this band. seeing the updates to the lore in person was so exciting like what do u mean clerkrard hugged (clerk punched gerard in the balls immediately afterwards) and then swapped jackets like??? awwww they're besties again!!!

ALSO BOTH CLOWNS???? HELLOOOO??? they did this for me forreal.

B stage was insane frank iero i love you so much you cooked with that so bad oh my god. boy division into party poison was the most insane thing I've ever experienced. bare in mind they hadn't played party poison since 2011. that's 15 years.

also i fucking SOBBED during desert song. like. even now i cannot watch clips from it because i just start crying again that song means so much to me.

speaking of crying KIDS????? KIDS FROM YESTERDAY???  WHAT THE FUCKKKK that broke me. like the group photo and all of them standing together watching the fireworks was genuinely such a beautiful moment I can't believe i was a part of it. i still can't believe they're actually real like that's so scary lmfao!! also the comment about the song being about them and us fuckkkk oh my god i was a mess.

also shout out to the person who gave me a tissue when they saw how hard i was sobbing you're literally the sweetest ever omg.

anyway i was sobbing on and off for like an hour and we were some of the last people in the stadium because I didn't want to leave. 

i love this band so much they saved my life. nearly dying during the day was so worth it for what i experienced that night. i hope they come back again soon.