"there is so much pain, and i dont know how to not notice it"

i just dont really know what else to be thinking of right now. 

my friends are all having a really hard time, and i dont know what to do for them. im only a kid, i cant help. but every single problem comes from the adults in our life. 

ive been thinking of this since i was in 7th grade. the suffering that me and my peers go through is horrible. and we pretty much only have each other. its us against the world. and this sounds cynical and odd and like teenage-angst or whatever but im serious. 

it feels like we are always on the same level, even if someone is more popular, smarter, taller, better... we care about eachother to some extent. at least from where ive seen. 

i think its because we arent taken seriously by anyone but our equal, someone who actually lives our lives with us every day. personally, i trust my friends more than adults because they understand more than any adult would.

theyll turn 30, and suddenly forget what it was like to be in our shoes. and then rank us out as if we are less-than. 

but my friends are so strong. 

i have many, many, many friends that are struggling with staying with us. and its making me so upset. not at them, but the circumstances that led to it. 

my friend just told me today that he was struggling, and all i could tell him was. "i like you. id hate for you to leave." 

what else could i say? i want him to know how important he is to me, but i cant articulate that kind of care. it goes beyond language. 

i try to cheer these people up and tell them how much i missed them when i got home, or how i wished they were in another one of my classes, or in my lunch period, or SOMETHING. little things that tell them how much i care about them. 

i guess this was a ramble, vent, something, idk. not sure how to end it... take care of yourself, yall, there are people who love you. 

p.s this might be deleted 

- texas, 10, 15, 26