They blame me for everything (rant post)

Hey beauties, 

I'm suffering. On the weekend I found out I'm being stalked when the person started telling me lies about my family. I ended up in the hospital. It's one of my lowest moments and now I'm struggling with the damage it caused. On top of that, I have been the target of everyone's blame at work.

First, I've been sick. The stress caused my, you know, "time" to be 3 MONTHS late. Not days, not weeks, months. Along with it came brain fog. This caused me to get worse and worse at my job. I'm sure it's also tied to burnout.

This week was horrible. The weekend was spent grappling the reality that someone I brought into my home with kindness and love, was happy see me dead and my family destroyed. Doctors told me to take time off work but I was too loyal to my boss going through cancer. I showed up.

Now for the work problems.

I work for a social service. We run events to help people. I genuinely had forgotten this week's event and it wasn't even my job. I deal with the paperwork, and only help a bit with the events. Well, the program coordinator forgot too, and boy, it's wild how something that isn't my job becomes all my fault. She told me I had no communication and I should've gotten it all prepared. All the while I was crying the day I was alone at work because I'm struggling so badly with what happened. Through this I still worked hard to make it happen, even with her attacking everything I did the whole day. That's problem A.

 I think it's without wonder if you've read this, why I want to quit. I was dealing with heavy burnout before this happened and before I even had the chance to tell my coworker anything, she makes me feel even worse. I submitted my notice on Wednesday that I would not be renewing my contract since it ends in 2 weeks anyway.

And guess what! It gets worse. Time for problem B.

It's Friday! My payday! I worked extra shifts and did my best to smile and help people. I picked up slack when others couldn't be in office. All this so I could buy a switch 2 and finally play pokopia. I was excited to get some me-time and show my partner all my creations. Then I open my bank account. I'm paid for 42 hours. I WORKED 58. She was short 327 dollars. That isn't a little amount, and unfortunately it means my dream is crushed.

I'm mad. Genuinely furious because this happened last time too. She asked me to come in and forgot to pay me. I let it slide before because she is sick and I understand. But this time I was extremely clear with her what days I was working. I even created a timesheet and used it like she asked. But what is her response? Blame me.

"We will sit down Tuesday. you switch your hours all the time and there are no proper time sheets you are the only staff that works this way." 

I checked the messages, I clearly stated the days I was coming in. I only changed my mind about attending a personal event this weekend and I told her last week I would be working instead of attending. 

All in all, you see why I can't do this anymore. I worked so hard through my placement with them and finally graduated with honours and got hired but I can't anymore. I can't take the blame. It hurts and I'm already hurting so much. I come home and cry. 

I don't know how to end this. It's just a bad situation and I needed to talk about it.