thing im probably overreacting about - blog 2

Summary: Brother wanted to go to an event and i went too. Im minding my own business and guy i dont know AT ALL walks up to me and starts hitting on me even tho i got a boyfriend and he asks if he treats me right (yeah?. he does??dude) Waited to ask for my age AFTER that and hes like 1-2 years younger than me, didnt know his grade but im assuming probably 9th? He looked older. then i gotta like lie about habing no socials and my phone being dead to get him to go away but he writes his number down and tells me to call him. I drink water and go to wendeys where i throw the note wirh his number away ok. Procrastinating telling my mom i want to start testosterone and complaing about binders being shit from a butt.

edit: dude HOW do i change the layout for this.its so long format.

Okayy so I was out because my brother was going to some event and i decided to tag along. We got coffee beforehand also picked up food for the thing

At first, didn’t talk to anyone nor did i intend to since i’m not really social ngl, so i climbed a tree and drew while in a notebook for awhile lowkey. There were alot of squirrels nd they were clearly used to being fed by people at rhe park LOL. I also drew on a rock i drew mochi america hetalia ok?

Eventually, a group of people at the event have one of those rainbow parachute things that a group of people lift up and like run under together yk? I hadn’t seen one in awhil so i thought it’d be fun to participate in since there was available handles. I get down from the tree i was in and walk over. Not thinking much of it, i pass by some dude and just wave since he was directly in my line of sight. He was with some of the event hosts i think. Anyway, parachute thing didnt last too long since i realized too late that it was going on, so i just go back to the spot i was at, remotely close to the main area the events at, but far enough where you can’t hear conversation clearly nor can they hear you, but you can see everyone well and they can see you. 

As soon as i get back up, i glance over at the group and notice the same person i waved at talking to some of the event holders again, nothing wrong with that, but then he glances at me, leading the people he’s talking to to look at me aswell. I don’t think too much of it and look back at whats infront of me. I’d say thirty seconds after that guy comes up to me. First he asks where I’m from, so i just say the general area ofc. LITERALLY the second question he has is if I’m single🥹.. ok dude. So I tell him I have a boyfriend right? He immediately goes “damn”. ok not too much wrong with that? Then he NOW decides to ask for my age, which yk im 16 right? He says he’s 14. Nonetheless he asks for my socials/number. While i feel bad lying i just tell him I don’t have socials and that my phones dead and i don’t have my number memorized💔.. So he writes his number and gives it to me, saying we can still be friends. u just asked if im single and CLEARLY expressed disappointment at me having a boyfriend.. He even asked if my boyfriend TREATS ME RIGHT?? Yeah? he DOES? i wouldn’t BE WITH HIM if he TREATED ME LIKE SHIT? I dont want to text him. I end up giving him my real name, which i probably shouldn’t have, but atleast he doesn’t have my number lmao. I don’t ask for his name back lowkey..

Soon enough he walks off, but still lingers in the area so i wait most of the remainder of my time in a public restroom stall drawing because i just reallyy dont want to talk to anyone now lowkey. I walk out eventually bc the event has food/drinks and i hadn’t eaten yet so i grabbed a water and stayed near the majority of the group, in which this hillbilly dude wont stop looking at me weird until i leave. ? whay the fuck.is happening. 

Then, I’m asked to come over by the same dude from earlier and he asks me to call him later.. Yeah so i tell him im busy which i was so i wasn’t lying.💔

Ok i leave. Thankfully the guy didnt know who i was with i think, so i left with no issues as far as im aware. The car felt like 100 degrees inside AT least and my brother and i kinda had to wait awhile for my mom since she was saying her goodbyes so i reallyy just wanted to go home, not only because of that but also because i was just kinda over with today. I never had someone approach me the way that dude did and it made me pretty uncomfortable since it kinda felt like he was willing to wait for something to happen between me and my boyfriend . I’m an over thinker sure but i really just need to say this somewhere outside of talking to my boyfriend about it since i thought it was important he was aware lowkey, esp since we’re long distance rn due to his family moving. I’m probably overreacting about this in some way but again i’ve just really never had someone directly hit on me like that 🥹. It kinda reminded me of those shitty street pickup videos men who peaked in highschool make of random women💔. I feel kinda bad saying all that, maybe he’s a nice person but it just felt like he was pushing it and i REALLY don’t want to deal with it. thats the first time something so outright has happened like that to me tho outside the internet so thats probably why it made me more uncomfortable. again hes probably chill i just dont want to have a friendship that is just formed because of this guys attraction to me, I dont even KNOW you. also no way he knew i was a dude either bc i haven’t used a binder in awhile and i guess i’ve been dressing more femininely idk and idrc.

We got Wendy’s after 🥹🥹🥹❤️❤️❤️🥹💕💕💕♥️💗💗💗💖 i thrrew away the pho e number at the wendys tradhcan.. sorry

Thought more about getting on testosterone (partially bc of the event) but im not a confrontational person when it comes to talking to my mom abt being yk. gay. She knows my boyfriend but she doesn’t know (she might know???) we’re together. I gotta stop procrastinating on it and just tell her since ik that she sees my boyfriend and his family as good friends, so she’d probably be ok with it.

I don’t care to much abt passing rn, even tho i still wanna be more masc i just don’t really have a good binder!!NOTHING works so far. I’m starting to care tho now,1!,!!!

Im behind on schoolwork 💕 i have two weeks

long ass post i might delete bradar what is this comment!, deleteis😂😂 bro im notmreading this😂 ur overreacting buddy.

ok km done..