Things are starting to change for the better a little bit

I’m starting to enjoy life again. Ik this is silly but I didn’t draw for a little bit and yesterday I started actually drawing again and I started to feel actually happy and content which has been kinda rare for me lately and all of today I felt content with myself and it was just little things that actually made me feel happier than usual today like I’m learning how to drive and I rlly struggle with parking but today I parked faster than usual and I was actually decently parked so I feel proud of myself for that and I’m proud of myself for drawing again and I was riding in our golf cart today and it was like around right before sunset and I felt the wind blow on me and the warm sun on my face and for the first time in a while, I actually wanted to live. I’m proud of myself for continuing to have faith in God despite me questioning it all and I’m glad I reached out to God bc like the past few nights he literally comforted me with the comfort I never got as a kid or from anyone else and he was always the one cheering me on to keep going. I also made a promise to my friend last week that no matter how hard it got i wouldn’t end it and I love her sm bc she’s like pretty much the only one other than God that I trust enough to open up to her that much on and I’m proud of myself for making that promise bc no matter how much I didn’t want to promise something like that I knew I had to for my own good bc I take promises VERY seriously and when I make them I keep them and for a while I’ve felt that I’ve imprisoned myself here by doing that but I’m proud of myself for making that promise even when I didn’t want to. If ur reading this just know I truly am proud of you and you’ve made it so far and that’s actually a rlly hard thing to do in this life so I’m rlly proud of you and you’re so strong. Live for the little things bc eventually they add up and I’m starting to have a sliver of hope for myself.