Things I want to do.

The blinkies say it all... I'm super depressed.

I know that sounds kinda dumb, but like... I am NOT doing well, for real.

I haven't done shit in my free time lately, although my not-free-time has actually been pretty interesting, but the total stasis of my day-to-day life has been KILLING ME.

And the thing is, the worst part: THAT'S ACTUALLY A LIE!                                             I have been doing stuff, my depressed brain just refuses to admit it, so it convinces me that my whole life is useless and that the protests, the Halloween party, and the upkeeping of my usually messed-up room are actually nothing and not at all productive! 

So anyways, given the current mental health situation, stated also in my previous blog, and the fact that it's been like this for about a month now, I've decided I need to get my shit back together and make a wishlist of goals that I want to achieve, so as not to end up absolutely killing my creative and intellectual spirit! :D 

NOTE: I've switched back to the standard blog layout 'cause it allows me to use cool fonts :P It looks less edgy, but it's more expressive! 

Here's the list!!

  Start writing in my diary again. I need tangible, legible proof of the things I do so my           brain can't tell me I'm doing nothing and I should die.

 Read something light, so complicated theory isn't my only input and I don't feel like I            hate reading.

 On the subject of reading, I should start reading the articles BEFORE my RCP                    meetings, so I can have questions and opinions formed beforehand. 

 Most importantly, START MAKING STUFF AGAIN!! I've been doing a little        bit of drawing, but I need to get back to bigger projects like watercolors, clothes                  alterations and bigger/more elaborate patches.

In the end, the main goal of these things is to give me concrete evidence that I am in fact doing stuff: diary pages, a bookmark farther forward than before, an actual improvement in my meeting contribution, wearable clothing items.... 

Hopefully, this will be enough to get me back to a decent state of humanity be4 I go completely insane...