this feels so weird in a good way

for a couple years now i've been really avoidant and have stayed away from romantic relationships. like i'd get a crush on someone then i'd immediately back off once they liked me back, or when I would get into a relationship i'd feel very uncomfortable and scared and feel a lot of regret cause it makes me feel trapped. this is just how it's been for me and I like accepted it like damn ok I'm just not meant for dating or any of that shit lmao but then I met this boy and we started talking and finally the other day he asked if I want to be his partner and I was so nervous but OBVIOUSLY I said yes cause I REALLY like him and for the first time in years I don't feel uncomfortable in any way in fact I'm really happy and excited about it like when did this happen? I was avoidant and suddenly I'm not? I'm scared? 😭