(this is very serious topic about mental health if youre sensitve about those topics i recommend to not read this)

I been wanting to talk about one topic so it's goung to be about me and maybe some advice to help yourself so i been dealing with depression and i was diagonsed with it when i was really young and it was because of my classmates and my teacher from grade 1 to 3 in my country so around 7 to 9 years old or 6 to 10 it depends what month youre born so my teacher was a old woman and she let my classmates to do whatever they want to and i was a kid with autism and adhd but i wasn't diagnosed yet so she let everyone bully me and she was making fun of me as well and i was also very sensitve so i was bullied by teacher and my classmates and when it was parent meeting with the teacher she always said everything was fine no one was getting bullied and my mom thought everything was fine so that's when my depression started because no one know about and i been telling mymom what was happening at school and she believed me but she didn't know it was that bad so when the 4 grade started i was 10 i started to do sh and my PE teacher saw the cuts on my wrists so she told my new teacher who was actually diffrent than my past teacher so she told my mom that i was doing sh and because of her my mom started helping me and i got therapy but it wasn't the professional therapist so i was still doing sh and i was really suffering but i got meds and new therapist but this still didn't end so i was still suffering but in secret and i been still bullied and it was time that i got into 5 grade and i was 11 years old and i tried to commit and i was in hospital many times but they just increased the dose of my meds and nothing helped me so i tried commiting i think like 4 times and they just were increasing the dose of my meds and nothing else so my school decided to homeschool me but it didn't help at all and just made me more nervous, tired and shy and i wasn't doing my homework that much because i didn't had any time and i needed to my mom help me with it and shes working 12 hours a day so i was drained and the after the second school semester they wanted me to homeschool me again but my mom didn't agree and we tried to change school to another city but they had rules that kids from other cities aren't allowed to go to their school so we tried everything and nothing helped so we tried from another city and luckly they agreed and now im gonna go to another school and now thankfully to my mom and my step dad that helped me and my mom and the new teacher i had in 4 and 5 grade i am doing better and i was diagonsed with the autsim and adhd i should've been diagnosed earlier but im doing better and i hope everyone that still struggle with depression will heal soon and get better and i have two advices that you could do if you struggle: bring a notebook to draw when your sad angry or you feel any intense emotions or bring your fav plushie i hope i could help you guys withe the advices and i hope you have a great day 💗