To gay or not to gay, that is the question.

Sorry, i'm aware that the subject is one of the most unfunny things ever but that's more your problem then it is mine so i don't really give a fuck.

Allow me to carry on.

THIS ONE GIRL IS SO PRETTY AND SO SMART AND SO KIND AND SO AMAZING AND SO TALENTED AND SOFJRBUEUBGAIOLMPGON

i might die.

I have good news and bad news my children, and because i am a psychopath i will tell you the good news first.

The good news is that she's also a lesbian and she knows i like girls! yayyyy!!

Now for the bad news... i've known her since first grade and we've been really good friends ever since. And you may think: 'But Wisteria, isn't that a good thing?'

No, no it isn't.

It's actually quite annoying. I can't just tell her that i like her, that would be very weird and awkward, and i also want to keep being friends with her for as long as i possibly can because she's genuinely so amazing.

I've also been confusing myself for a pretty long time about this. Do i like her as a friend or as a girlfriend? I don't know.

I do love holding her hand and she gives me like the best hugs ever. You know what she's also giving me?

MIXED FUCKING SIGNALS

She holds my hand a lot, she compliments me a lot, she tells me a lot of her secrets, she talks to me about her feelings and emotions a lot, she cares for me, and so on, and so on.

I am now realizing that to anyone reading this it will sound really silly and stupid lmao.

Anyway, we do scouts together and we also do theater together but we're not in the same school and we never have been. She's such a good actress and such a fun person in general and i feel like i'm not even remotely cool enough for her.

Any diva's out there who wanna give me some advice???

HELPPPPP

xx Wisteria

P.S. I'm very aware of the (very) poor grammar and sentences in this entry, it's like 3am and i just had to get this out of my head real quick!

I also really appreciate the comments on my last entry, it was really comforting to know that other people are going through the exact same things as i am!