today i learnt smth new abt myself

i recently went rock climbing with my family and while my sister reached the top of the wall thingeys pretty quickly (super proud of her!), i ended up freezing up abt 7-8 feet up. i literally could not move and started shaking pretty violently and nearly passed out, but thankfully the instructor brought me down safely. now, i would say this as it is: im not scared of heights specifically, but i think im scared of the loss of control i have over my body. or most likely, the fear of falling. i ended up having ice cream and my family made sure i was fine, but it just felt somewhat embarrassing bc people saw it and i just wanted to hide LOL, but tbf i have been diagnosed with horrible anxiety so it makes sense that i froze up. guess i'll always be learning new things abt myself :p