Today I woke up, Where’s my reward?

Everything has been going horribly lately, I wont go into much detail but honestly shit has got me thinking. Nothing I’ve ever done had ever mattered. everything I’ve ever done was for a quick dopamine boost to distract me from the fact I’m still living and breathing. My art has no meaning, My thoughts have no meaning... I’m a fucking empty shell incapable of changing anything… I feel like i’m destined to work a 9-5 for minimum wage, surviving paycheck to paycheck… Sometimes I wonder if I should end it all now to prevent further suffering. Hell, sometimes I wonder if the other people in my system are real or if I’m just extremely fucking delusional.

-post made by Anth