todayyyy

touched up my hair dye today! I woke up around 9 today (shockingly early for me) and I made a quesadilla to take with my pills and then forgot to take the pills. I did take them with a little bit of cereal as a snack because its still hard for me to swallow them 😸 

I spent a little more time on my porch getting in some sun and fresh air and let my cat sit with me outside for a bit. unfortunately I skipped lunch (ack.) and also had a late dinner (10pm) and I have no clue why ive been slipping up on meals again. 

I think I had a bit of an anxiety attack this afternoon when I was trying to cook and listen to music. im not sure what happened but I swore I could hear loud banging and maybe yelling so I kept taking my earphones out to hear and even pausing my music but there was nothing. my heart was pounding and my breath felt so short and I hate it because I'm literally taking pills for these and I never really freak out like that ???

im hoping its a one off thing because I really can't afford to lose my marbles actually. I did dye my hair again (did a fresh wash of pinkkkk) and I think once I use up all of my pink dye I'll go back to black. I do love being pink, I love it but I am notttt😭gonna manage it well enough. 

with black you touch up your roots occasionally but with pink it's a whole process. I was also considering a trim because my ends are a disaster but I don't wanna lose any length😿😿 I don't think I did much else today (besides smoking and napping with my kitty) but I wanna try and get a lot more done tomorrow for sure😼