Kind of scared because my mental health hasn't been really great im like not really good but also not rock bottom I guess im okay sometimes really not okay but you know what actually no im REALLY scared I dont really have any hope for this school year I'll try to romanticize it but I feel like its gonna be hard and this school year is like important and whatever so I have to focus more and study more I guess I can try right?
I really dont have the energy to go to school and talk to people tbh im just grateful I have 2 loyal friends which is super rare but I guess I found my people after trying to make friends for my entire life lol
Its also really hot outside so I dont know how thats going to work out I really hate hot days im more of a cold breeze person
I hate feeling sweaty and sticky
Im mostly scared of my daily routine being disturbed I dont know why but I have this problem where I need to stick to routines and any changes to it will give me really bad anxiety like I just want to be certain with myself and im scared I will mess up because of the changes and its just really scary for me I dont know why but uncertainty literally drives me insane
Anyways I will blog about my day tomorrow and what will happen, still got that intense fear in my mind that I can't get over can someone tell me why the hell does this happen?
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Lacey
Sounds so rough, I hope you get through the day safely. Wear something cotton so you dont sweat a lot. And maybe bring Wet wipes to wipe yourself if you get sticky. School in the heat is terrible, maybe stay inside in cool areas when you can. stay strong bro
Thank u so much <3 just blogged about being back from school if u want check it out :)
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