[Topic of The Day]: How do you go back to normal after grief?

My best friend died on July 7th, 2026 and it's been really bad for me even after the funeral just getting over it. My life has gone back to normal as I was able to get access to his unreleased music and release the statement for his passing on his YouTube channel but how do you just, go back to feeling normal? 

I was disassociating and going a bit insane, talking-to myself and crying hoping he'd come back and say it was a prank, even putting his casket in. the ground was a bit of a struggle for me because I still couldn't believe it. My disassociation has gone down significantly thanks to therapy and friends but in the end, how do I write this new chapter of my life? I think about him everyday, we were supposed to be starting college this month, he was supposed to be my best man if I ever got married, so many things were close but God looked at me and stepped on my neck. 

And I know, I know you don't really go around grief you go through it but it's different when it's your fucking childhood best friend. It feels like I'm in a looping nightmare and even though my feelings aren't as intense anymore... it still hurts whenever I pick out my classes or talk to his sister and realize I can't play video games with my boy anymore. 

Also big shout out to my friend @fujin for helping me through everything even though I can be a lost cause at times.