Trans thoughts

Ever since I discovered myself, being trans and being on the ace spectrum, I've felt so free. I have a lovely boyfriend, and have goals for my future. Yet I still feel sad. I feel sad because the world around me condemns my existence, and I live in fear if I were ever to pursue getting HRT, I wouldn't be loved the same by my peers or family. It's silly because I know I'm loved, especially by my boyfriend, but I still live in those irrational fears that I won't be loved if I were to get a deeper voice, be a bit more masculine, just be myself. I bury these feelings and thoughts so deeply as to not worry anyone but it gets to a point where it sours my mood and makes me deeply upset, and I am unable to express it. I hope everything gets better, I hope I can live on without the fear of being killed, by myself or by someone.

I live in fear if I end my life it would be because I was trans, or gay, or autistic, or ace.

That wouldn't be true, my identity is not what kills me, its others who condemn me and hurt me.