Transparency

I wanted to make this blog for the people who want to be my friend.This blog is very personal to me so please don’t judge me. It’s ok to block me if you feel uncomfortable.

I came to this site to make friends, like actually friends not just online “most”. I don’t have any irl friends so I’ve resorted to the internet. I hope this blog helps people understand my behaviors.

I don’t like opening up to people. I feel like the more I share stuff about myself the more people alienate me. 

I tend to boring or fear when talking to people unless it’s about my interests. I can be a good listener but I struggle to hold long conversations.

I hate not being someone favorite person. I like being needed. I feel important when I’m the first person people think about.

But the thing I hate the most about myself is how I always push the people around me away and I don’t even know why. All the online friends I ever had I’ve blocked them for one reason or another. Probably out of fear getting too attached to a person that isn’t as invested into me as I am into them. 

Sorry for the long read.