Traveling with allergies

I went to Poland not so long ago and I wanted to talk about my experience with food on vacation and in new places as a picky girl who is allergic to nuts and eggs. So before I start with the Poland trip I want to talk about an experience that I think worsened my pickiness. I was going to travel to Vietnam for two months and at the airport I of course had to eat. So I went to this burger shop and asked them if their burgers had eggs or nuts in them, the man looked annoyed at me and said no like it was obvious, but to me I always have to ask incase because there is a lot of times I have gotten eggs in me which is not a fun experience. So I order a burger and ate almost half of it before I started feeling really sick. I looked at the burger and noticed that shiny gloss on the bread that you get from penciling it with egg(I think). I didn't bother paying attention to that as I knew it didn't have egg in it but I was wrong. I went quickly to the bathroom and threw up about 5 times. I literally went to the bathroom, then out and realised I had to puke again. I had to hold the puke inside me with my hand till I arrived in the bathroom. It went like that till I had to go to the plane and after that I got really scared that my food would have eggs or nuts in them. So I didn't eat much that trip and always felt sick after eating. Only when I came home again I started eating more and not feel sick. So I have always had that paranoia when eating outside of my home, even when I know the food doesn't include egg or nuts. 

Now to the Poland trip. After experiencing that, I was of course very anxious of how it would be getting food in Poland. I packed double amount of medicine of what I really needed just incase and I turned out to need that. The first day I came there we took the train because my brother wanted to save money and be more eco friendly. Its was already late and I was hungry and even worse it took a while to find the hotel so when we came there, the clock was about 11 or 12. We went to the restaurant in the hotel, it was about to close, but they served us still. The waiter was really nice and when we ordered I asked him if there was any nuts or egg in the meal. He started to only talk about the egg and how it didn't contain any so I thought that was awesome, but when my meal came it was covered in nuts. I felt very ashamed because I realised I hadn't talked loudly enough for him or anyone to hear the nuts part. Going to restaurant and having to ask them to fix my meal or having them talk about what it contains always makes me nervous for some reason and it makes my voice more quiet, Idk why but I think it has always been like that. We asked him if they could make another dish for me while they were closing the kitchen and they were kind enough to open it for me. It took a while before my meal came and this time it didn't contain eggs or nuts. I got to eat but I felt bad for making the chef and server work overtime and having my family wait for me and pay for an extra meal. 

After that time the whole trip my parents asked me about what I wanted to eat and stuff like that, I know it was so I could eat and they just cared for me but it always makes me uncomfortable making the choices because I know its just because I have allergies and are picky. One time they had already eaten lunch something I didn't want to eat so when it came to dinner they asked me what I wanted to eat. I wanted to eat at this Indian restaurant, but I didn't want to tell them even tho it was only me who were going to eat. I was afraid that if I said it, I would drag them to a place they didn't want to be and I didn't want be the only one eating. So we went around and checked other restaurants and I started to see my parents get a bit annoyed because I choose any places. It made me want to cry for some reason and to make me not cry I took up the courage and told them I wanted to eat there. 

Things like this happened a lot like one time they asked me what I wanted to eat, I told them pizza, but that it didn't really matter to me. They started to look for pizza places and constantly ask me if I wanted to eat there or here and I didn't like being constantly asked, I wanted them to choose and pick a place they wanted to eat at. I told them this, but they didn't listen. We ended up picking a place without pizza, I liked the place so it was fine with me. Here is the a part I don't really remember, but I got a bit upset not because of I didn't eat pizza, but rather because my parents again didn't listen to me. I just don't remember what it was about. My mom notices that I was upset and said its because I didn't get pizza, which is just stupid, because why would I be upset about that when it told them I liked the place we went to? They started talking about pizza and didn't listen to me when I said it was not about that to the point it felt like I was shouting at them. I just wish I wasn't the one having to choose all the time ,when they won't even listen to me. 

More on the food part whenever I'm ordering I always asks as I told you guys, but sometimes the waiter just looks at me like I'm stupid, like its obvious that it isn't in the dish, but I'm just scared having to puke over and over again like at the airport so its really annoying when that waiters looks at me like that. I also hate when I ask them if it contains something and they go in the back and asks and then it takes a while. This is because I do not want to be a burden to them and it feels like I am when the people around me have to wait on the waiter. I feel annoying having to constantly ask them and make them do more work. Especially when I'm in another country because then it's also a little language barrier which makes me feel stupid.

So as you can see I do not like going out and often when I have eaten I feel sick and dizzy like I'm going to puke out my organs. Not because I'm allergic, but because I've eaten in a new place, eaten new food or the texture was of. So when I was in Poland I took a lot of medicine after eating so I was almost out of medicine when I came back. This might be a problem if it continues because it think my max of medicine is 2 or 3. My doctor told me I could take 2 a day if I feel bad or my allergies are bad, but sometimes I end up taking 3 or take 2 many times, but I do not know if its really that bad, but it still makes me feel like I'm doing something bad when I take to many. This was a really long yap and I have a lot more to talk about lol, but I think I should stop here before I yap too much (probably have already).