turning 17???

i keep 4getting im turning 17  this year, like im 1 week away from turning 18?? its so weird to me T~T" 

i feel like im so far behind my peers, getting cars and jobs and im just here being a fat chud like ?? i dont live in a country that allows jobs b4 18 is why mostly. BUT STILL! i have so many hobbies i wanna persue but fear is holding me back （ーー；）like drawing, playing guitar, skating, the list goes on!!!!

i feel like theres this weird mental divide between 16 and 17, 16 feels young and 17 feels older and maturer, same with 15 and 16!! like 15 feels like babies to me now LOL!