Turning 17 in 3 days!!!

I turn 17 this friday, and, I mean, I've had the past year to think it over right but it all feels very strange still. This post will mostly be me rambling but I'm not sure what else to blog about and I really wanna try out this blog  layout I've just made :-)

I've got a party planned but its not really on the day of my birthday, so it's been hard to think of what to actually do on the day of. maybe I'll go for a long walk and read in the park. I don't think either of my parents are free (I can't drive </3) so something in walking distance is kinda my only option. most likely I'll go out and buy myself ice cream with some spare money I've got from selling at the farmers market.

overall, I've been feeling like I'm quite ready for senior year of high school but not at all ready to properly turn 17. 

not that this is a big year for me or anything, I think people probably overlook their 17th birthday a lot. It's just always been quite hard to process that I'm an entire year older if that makes sense. Theres also the fact that any day involving gifts is quite overwhelming, I often feel like I don't act right or express enough gratitude and sometimes my mom will act all disappointed if I don't seem excited for gifts, often it's a lot of unnecessary social pressure (and the same goes for christmas) 

Overall, I think I'm excited (??) but simultaneously, like any other big event, it's kinda tough to wrap my head around it actually happening