TW I guess, idk anymore

Don't feel pity for me. Everything could be so much worse. Hate me for being selfish .

I am exhausted. I feel like I have no time left, everythings dull. I can't tell where I am, I can't tell who I am. I feel a hollow feeling in my chest. I can't tell anyone what I feel, If I do, I'm cast away forever. I zone out, I fall asleep, I eat, I laugh, I can't be bothered to move. People say they care, so I can't speak, because if I do they're disappointed, annoyed, outraged, confused. 

I can't remember a damn thing anymore, I tell people and it's always "Oh me too, I just have a bad memory." "Everyone deals with some bad memory issues, you're fine." 

I can barely remember yesterday, I don't know what my childhood was like, I can't remember what people tell me, I can't even remember what my teachers taught me. 

I don't know what to do every things lost my brain isnt working What do i do? live it out? breathe? exist in pain? hate everything i do?

i cant   school makes me hollow    I DONT CARE    GO TO SCHOOL OR ELSE      THEYLL TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME.

you dont have issues your so fucking privileged. Im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry I'm so sorry. I know i have a wonderful life  im broken   damnit i dont know

I can barely breathe anymore.