So basically I go to very small private Christian school with literally no other alt kids its also veryy conservative and Republican But basically I was friends with 2 popular girls in the grade above me but one of them brought her vape to school so yk we were using it and then they snitched on us but basically one of the girls sister told her mom it was mine even though it wasn't and her mom is veryy strict. But she was like my best friend and now if her sister sees us talking at school she's gonna tell on her and she's gonna get grounded again.. Ive never really had a friend for more then a year maybe? The other popular girl still talks to me she just doesn't really as much. I still have my bf but we have no classes together. I literally have to sit through 7 periods with nobody to talk to I feel so fucking out of place. I watch all sorts of kids make friends and get popular. Also since im not a Christian they hate me so much. Like this girl was talking to me about a band she likes and then this other kid who's threatened me multiple times over me simply not being Christian and then I asked the girl if it was Christian music and she was saying something I couldn't hear her tho because the other kid was asked me what I didn't like about Christian music I just said it isn't my thing really and he got really mad.. My mom also won't let me go to a different school because she works at the school and also hates me for not being a Christian she does her prayer rituals over me and all that shit. I just really wish I had more friends at school or if I could go to a different school for more opportunities for friends.!
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cygarette_69
Aw I’m sorry! That sounds really draining </3 Just don’t let them take your personality away from you. Though it may feel scary to express yourself, and you may find yourself repressing your feelings and true morals/identity, it is crucial that you stay true to yourself. I know, it’s easier said than done haha! Hope it gets better for you!! I hope my message could put even a small smile on your face today! :)
Cysper04
That's rough, but I hope you'll get around it and have an opportunity to go to a different school.
When I was heavily depressed I got into that religion.
I wasn't very religious until that I got into it like back in 2024.
Kinda helped me for quite a bit until it really messed up my Mental Health even further down the line.
Still quite depressed though because of how things were for me.
I hope I could get off of it and be agnostic or something.