Ughhhh fuh

I don't really care anymore. I got SA'd by my best friend of 10 years last summer and it's taken me until the same time this year to remember and realise. I spent a summer taking to him and another friend of mine. As well as helping them through a break up. It's taken me until a few days ago to tell a member of my family. I'm hoping my sister tells my mum soon so she can tell the school so it'll get sorted. 

As for my assaulter, I still stick around him. I've been told to go but I feel that I'm not emotionally stable enough to do so. This is someone over known for yours, not matter how many times I've tried to get him of his fatass and show my hes worth it. He does the same bullshit over and over again, from insulting me to belittling me. I don't care anymore, I've told someone who can do something bc my attempts arnt working. I've been his p-chan for at least a year or more, he's unstable and his homelife sucks. So if the talk does happen with the school I'm getting him on a helpline along with whatever punishment they give him. Im done with being on suicide watch and being the butt of his dumb joking coping mechanism. His coping mechanism caused this. I'm want to be left alone. So far there's no hint in my mum knowing. So fuck me ig. I actually just want to be home alone not talking to anyone, not him, not my friend and not even my family. Fuck it.