undeniable heat

and once summer finds me again, the illusion the year has placed upon me vanishes. the cruel texan heat chastises me for falling for it, and she makes sure i don’t forget this time. at least she tries to--i ultimately seem to ignore it again every year. as i sit alone in the shade underneath my patio, her warmth is there. my arms tingling and my lips pursed. i won’t forget. i silently step outside into the rain, away from anyone’s view. my throat runs dry and i’m engulfed in humidity, coursing my skin throughout. she’s here. i face the sun-- challenging her cruelty, but i falter. summer is her element. i don’t have the autumn leaves or spring flowers to distract me; the winter skies cannot shelter me from her glare. she’s won, again. the cool sheets in my room provide me with a sense of comfort, but she’s already made her impact. august will begin once again. i’ll meet new people and converse with those i’ve known years prior. while the breeze of winter allows me to enjoy these fleeting moments, and spring's orange hues and scent of grass lets me forget of her presence, she’ll always find me all alone. those who played a role in the fleeting moments i cherished are ultimately nowhere to be seen. again, i battle this summer on my own.