uni count your days

tell me why the first day of uni was genuinely so fucked up. there were like two good things that happened maybe--one was a cute guy helping me with direction and perfect timing too cause i would've missed my bus if he hadn't helped so thank you to that man, and two was i got to hangout with my friend and get coffees with her. 

now onto the stress. first and fucking foremost i woke up groggy as fuck cause my fridge was making weird ass loud ass noises all night and it kept me up and i swear i heard footsteps my fucking dorm is haunted bro. so right off the bat im fighting for my life here. then i find my physiology class and fuck this dude just gets right into it. i know nobody as a transfer student so im by myself trying to not look like a loser and these bitches are testing my patience by not saying fucking excuse me and just elbowing me like ho do you wanna get slapped. then after not understanding dick all he said and realizing its CHEMISTRY which i am the worst at, i decide to walk back to dorms because its a nice day but i get lost like 5 times end up taking way longer to get back and im sweating balls and have like not as much time to make food and eat. THEN i find my next class (and meet a very sweet girl - not in my program of course) and its the same shit everyone acts like i have the plague and avoids sitting near me so i have no friends off the get go (note - need to stop getting there so early and just sit with a row of them once - maybe ill introduce myself at the lab because i likely need a partner), so whatever class gets through its all good, then i head back and on the bus up to coffee i FALL in front of everyone even my friend said it was embarrassing and now my shoulder hurts. we find our classes after for tomorrow and the ONE i need i cant get into the building to see where the fuck it is so im fucked cause i have 10 minutes to get all the way over there and find it and be there. mind you, i dont know this new universities lab policy so idk if i can wear shorts or what the PPE situation is like and they wont post the fucking prelab till MIDNIGHT. its like they literally dont want me to prepare. its an hour to midnight so i might just stay up and suffer. then i get back, and hoping im not hungry which i of course am, so i make ramen that i didnt know came from hell itself it was so spicy. THEN i go to try and knock SOMETHING ANYTHING FOR THE LOVE OF GOD off my to-do list to feel somewhat accomplished and theres problems with EVERYTHING. people cant get their shit together for my intramural team and im the one who needs to know so i can fucking register them so i cant knock that off, then all my textbooks arent available on any free sites AND theyre all over 160 dollars AND some of them might need mcgraw hill and i dont know if they do or not AND all the packages of payment options are fucking confusing as hell AND it doesnt say in the syllabus if i need the lab manual or not like jesus fucking christ. I cant do anything else cause i need to talk to my dad about the rest of the stuff and hes ancient so hes asleep any time i have some free fucking time to get shit done. so basically im showing up to the lab tomorrow flying completely fucking blind and friendless and im fucked. tempted to not even show but i have to. its going to be a humiliation ritual. everyone in this program is so mean. 

like guys high school was years ago. grow the fuck up and act like an adult. wouldnt want to be any of your coworkers. if i ever work with any of you guys im telling the boss how rude you were in college btw. fuck you. 

goodnight