vent #3

I don't like feeling sad.. being depressed is the worst thing ever.. and it sucks when I am usually a happy person in public.. all the "are you okay?'s and the "what's wrong?"s are kind of demeaning... it makes me feel like I am a liar to everyone and myself.. and the negative thoughts get are the worst... I feel like my friends truly do not like me and talk to me out of pity.. and everyone treats me like a child!! I am childish but that does not give you the right to patronize me because of it! depression will be the death of me, I swear..