Ima delete this later but I really feel alone rn. Every time I enter some1's life ,I just mess things up for them. I was talking to this girl recently and I really hurt her feelings. We have only been talking for a week, but I started to really like her. We met up last night, and all I did was ruin everything. She doesn't want to see me anymore. I hate being alone and I feel like me entering her life was a mistake. All I did was make her feel used and shitty about herself. There's something seriously wrong with me. I don't know how to fix it. I want to repair things with her, but I also know I have to deal with the consequences of my actions. I did this to myself, there's no one else to blame. So why? Why do I feel so sad? Why do I do this to not just myself, but others? Β Am I put on this earth just to fuck with people? I don't want to do that. I don't. I feel evil on the inside. I just want to make people happy but im failing so hard. I don't feel like I can reach out to any1 about this. So I came here to rant. Sorry this is kind of heavy for my only blog rn, I just feel so alone. I will delete this.Β
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you tell me?sometimes I feel like all social and trying to interact as much as possible, but then I ran out of the "battery" and want to be alone.Basically I have almost 0 friends irl, since all the ones that I had were from high school (which I finished) and online I don't really interact that much with people, here atleast I type in one blog and move on
loneliness has become my normal and peaceful, but it can be harmful
I hope that you'll eventually meet your people who will like you to your bone and to your flaw
hell, u can add people there and try to get something outta them... EVEN ME
but I trust and hope that you'll make it big one day big dog, and be surrounded by lovely people
Hope u see this before deleting yer blog