(vent) idek if i can do ts

im so fucked no matter what i fucking do. i owe $463 for enrollment fees and im not eligible for the fucking california college promise grant because i fucked myself over the past couple years due to my mental PLUS i cant find a job, the fees are due on the 7th or else i get fucking dropped from my classes. i promised id try community college again after i got better but now it js fucking seems like i fucking cant ANYWAY. and i cant even ask because money is tight and i dont wanna cause more stress than there alrdy is, my mom js had wrist surgery and my dads always fucking complaining about money so i dont even wanna try w him anyhow.

here's to suffering the consequences of my actions ig. im fucking doomed.