vent ig(ughhhh)

I think one of the things that pisses me off abt myself is the fact i cant even express my feelings all that well. i come off as too strong or i act like i dont care enough(though one is easier to stop than the other). Almost all of the relationships i have end up the same, 

1. I block them out of anger

and 2. I regret blocking them on the first place cause i realize i'll never get treated the same and staying friends would have been good enough. 

It's stupid cause im literally the one putting myself in said situation. Most of the times though, it's bc i listen to my friends' poor judgement. I really cant make most decisions on my own ig. 

Then again im not good at doing anything on my own. It's whatever though. I'll die and who would even care? On another positive note, i think im finally getting over my last relationship lol.