I gen can’t see myself living past the age of 17-18 and becoming an adult. I can’t envision a future for myself in my head and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I suck at school and I never do any of my work and get bad grades. I have no friends and my own mother doesn’t speak to me or cares about me in any way. I’ve attempted twice and cut myself in the past but even those things I failed at. I feel so hopeless and empty all the time is genuinely unbearable. The only reason I’m still alive is because of my dad since he’d be devastated if I died. Living is so exhausting idk how people do it. I am diagnosed autistic with MDD and suspected ADD. I have struggled with my mental health since I was very young. This is nothing new, but I’m tired of being miserable all the time you know?
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NthingmoreNthingLess
Ok so I realized I added this to the Life category instead of the rants and vents category on accident sorry guys
EmyVox
Hello there.
First, I need you to know that if you think of doing harm to yourself, you really need to talk to someone. A professional would be the good kind of person to go to, but I know that sometime it's hard to seek professional help. You need to talk at least to someone else about this wether it's a family member, a friend, a stranger on the internet.
Talking is the first step to feeling a bit better.
I'm putting this link here for more information if you need support: https://friendrewind.com/help.php
Also, I know I'm a complete stranger, and that I'm older than you, but I do know how you feel, because I've been there at your age. You can talk to me if you think that can help. We might not know each other, but I do worry about you.