venting or stuff about sh

so I've been going to therapy for over 5 months now and NOTHING has changed, I still feel like my emo depressing from before therapy,, I've been trying to recover but omg my parents do not let me catch a break

I kinda still do sh,, just not as much as I used to ,, and my mom threatened me that if I do sh again, she's gonna send me to a mental hospital, so uh, yeah ! that didn't help a bit at all

and like instead of me wanting to die,, I lowkey just wanna disappear,, like that's all bro