Wanting to be more

I don’t wanna explain this feeling, if you know you know. If you don’t, this blog is going to make no sense to you. I personally don’t think I am a boring person or whatever, but I always want more from myself and really from my life in general. I think what is keeping me from achieving my ultimate self is mostly my friends. They are good friends, I guess, and everything, but they are not like me at all. I do the basics with them: drink, dance, umm, is that it? I tried to lure them into some of my interests, and they don’t fit that well. And when someone does fit a bit, I feel like the captain, you know? I am the one that guides and decides stuff. BUT I WANT SOMEONE TO GUIDE ME to new shit!! It’s always me and myself when it comes to discovering this world. I want to become many more things, but all by myself is getting hard. I need new perspectives, new ideas, new places. I know all! And yet I feel like I don’t know anything. I want to be more…