we could be friends

Is it so damning to say I want more friends?

I can't help it, I'm greedy that way. There are two girls, bit older than me, sitting at the table next to mine and I'd like to be friends with both of them. They are each smoking cigarettes and dressed so well, I can just about overhear their conversation and I have to restrain myself from joining in. Ah, what's a girl to do?

Maybe I'll start sending applications? No, that's not quite right. Truly, there are a few requirements. One must be based in Berlin because... well... I'm here. Then one in Poland, maybe tell me about your city or your small town, and the nature of the people. It will be fun, I'll listen to you often and I'll ask questions. 

Maybe one in Mexico - tell me there how it goes. I think we'll relate. Perhaps one in Italy to make up for my dear Italian friends that have slowly slipped away. And one from all the Asian countries I can name. They can teach me about their place, I could fumble over trying to make sense of mine. 

Preferably an LGBTQ ally? For that would hint to me that they are trustworthy, supportive, or chill, or just all of the above. Age range I am not too picky on, I have great friends who are both older and younger than me. I'd love to make older friends though, maybe they can show me their grown-up world. I could use some exposure independent life, you know... Being responsible and all? Oh how I hope mother dearest will support me with a college far away! Hmmm, an idyllic thought that one is :)

Though... I suppose that what one truly must have is a strong, biting sense of humour. The ability to just find the joy in whatever. Maybe roll fond eyes or laugh sweetly at a human experience to comfort instead of cringe.

Or have the ability to swerve attempts at offense, and never wrang offense on someone out of pure pettiness. Someone who to knows when to pull back and relax. Maybe redirect. Bonus points if they easily run on others, what a growth buddy.

I am looking for the one who knows when to switch to see the big picture, and smile fondly, and then persevere again. Help me with such and such too... Oh they'll do it so well, I will immediately know they have my back. I will be grounded in an instant. They're easily the rock for their friends. I want to pay them with the same.

Ooh, or say - an excitement for life - a desire to do new and random things, and a keen KEEN KEEN sense of adventure. Recognising when they dull and drool, then snapping themselves right of it by doing something bizaree that they can't even tell everyone about.

Believing they'll be okay! They'll have such a cosmic relief when it all goes their way, and they will believe ever more. In themselves, in their friends, maybe family, and maybe the chance of life itself.

Life will take me where it wants and introduce me to who I am to meet. I know, I am aware it will go as it goes and I trust it.

But MY GOD must it take its sweet time? I'm relentlessly keen. Show me a sign :]

XoXo

maple syrup

sorry for the yap, one messy proof read and done