weekly blog #1

hii!! i hope everyone had a wonderful week  this is my first time ever writing a blog but i'm gonna try to make this an actual weekly thing we will see if i can 

(before starting i must say that i'm not a native speaker so excuse any grammar mistakes english doesn't make any sense anyway so!!)

this week was kind of horrible, i'm getting dizzy spells even without a headache and my ocd flared up for no reason?? also i was on my period jeez. had some bad news about the house we're living in too so boooooo really.

but good news i'm starting spanish classes! i was in between french and spanish but went with spanish cuz where even i'm gonna use french? ever since i was a little kid i wanted to learn french because i had a HUGE hyperfixation on miraculous ladybug ever since the first season aired for the first time and when new episodes came they were always in french, i remember watching the christmas special in french with eng subtitles and not understanding a thing but making up what they're saying in my mind lmao. 

i was also obsessed with youtube fanfics and comic dubs, especially ladynoir and marichat ones and i absolutely despised ladrian and didn't really gaf about adrinette so imagine my disappointment when anything but ladynoir became canon lmao. ladynoir was appealing because for the "us against the whole world" aspect (makes sense why in 2021 i became obsessed with soukoku) and now its barely them anymore, cat noir doesn't even get a second to shine it's always the whole hero team and while it was fun for them to have a companion once in a while it got boring very quick. i need my duo back😔 the show had so much potential with its concept but it sucks that its writer sucks at his job. well to give them credit, i think marinette's writing has improved ever since she became the guardian which i appreciate also liela or whatever her name is is definitely more interesting than hawk moth and i like what they're doing with characters in general but i wish chloe got to have her arc like everyone else. 

okay enough of miraculous yapping, (but please do tell me if you enjoyed that show at least once in your life if you cant tell i was a huge mlb nerd)

beat of the week: sunsets are for muggings - leathermouth

i've liked leathermouth since forever but last week i got a whole obsession for them, specifically this song idk why i resonate with this band's songs in a way it's hard to explain. most people i have added here already like mcr so i assume they also know about leathermouth but if you don't give it a try!!

dan and phil finally came back to their podcast and they told us they're gonna keep the podcast during tour!!! as someone who can't go to the tour (i live in west asia lol) i'm so glad we're getting content even during the tour. i started watching them just before start of tit era so their tour eras mean so much to me (although i only joined the fandom around the spring of 2025) and i'm really curious what they have to bring to the table after what happened during tit, how can you top the "sleeping in the same bed during tatinof" reveal?? or terrible the song??? and it's space themed it's all so exciting

how does one get motivation to finish the fanfic they've been writing for months? i've been writing this one shots for literally months but i have no motivation to finish it :(( they're both dan and phil fics (one dan focus one phil actually) but ugh i cant just write it down i also had an au idea where they're both single parents and their kids become best friends and it was gonna be multi chaptered but again i got lazy so it's just there. i will get there one day

i also watched jennifer's body (finally!) and oh my god not gonna spoil it but it was as good as what people were saying about it, got a 4 from me on letterboxd (5 is reserved for phm, tit, wad and obsession and before you judge i barely watch movies i'm a serie guy)

ALSO WHAT HAPPENED 2 DAYS AGO we were signing my brother for english classes and they wanted to see how my english level was, a guy took me to a classroom and asked me questions in english (which after he said i'm really good and easily c1, it might not look like it but i'm better than how i write here i can assure you) and he asked me about my favorite tv show and i was like "oh its buffy the vampire slayer" and he got all excited and told me i'm too young to know about it because it was one of his favorite tv shows as a teenager in 2000s and he preferred angel the show over buffy so we discussed that but it was so exciting to talk to someone irl who knows things about the stuff i enjoy 

i still haven't finished buffy but i'm almost done with season 6 and SCARED for season 7 don't want to say bye to the gang yet :(( i get why phil was so obsessed with it if i could i would cover my room with buffy and smg posters too 

uni is starting in 28 days!! im so excited and scared since i'm taking 40 credits this semester (it's a min 30 max 50 credits for gpa 3+ system) and i have 2 law classes (i study international relations btw) 

something i didn't miss from uni is that every single person in my class is extremely pro ai and they use it even for papers that wants our own opinion?? girl you study politics the whole point is to learn how to analyse not to ask ai?? they use ai then complain about failing their classes i can't believe this an uni class bro you chose your major and studying at uni i just don't get it. 

for people who have migraines, is it normal to get dizzy even without a headache? i'm not very knowledged on migraines despite having a diagnosis since the age of 8 (thanks to my mom's genes) and every year it's been getting significantly worse, i don't get any treatments and haven't seen a doctor about it since the diagnosis and all i do is take paracetamol for the headaches but the other symptoms are showing themselves more every other day like the dizziness is new i always got a little bit dizzy sometimes but recently i've been thinking it might be related to migraines? no matter how much i rest it doesn't go away for a whole day and usually when i wake up it gets better but a few hours later it comes back (i had a bad one on sunday and i'm currently dizzy again) and i get motion sickness more severe even though they were always so severe and i can't see a doctor rn so idk what to do really 

anyway do i have any death note phannies here?? i have to see after they admitted "modern cosplaying" l and light at the musical i was obsessed with both during different times of my life you have no idea

i haven't been active here for so long because of my mental health and migraines are getting worse but that's exactly why i'm forcing myself to come back, treating this thing like a kind of exposure therapy or something :P

i think that's all i have for this week!! i hope you enjoyed idk if anyone will ever read this but anyway!! also message me if you have anything to talk about i struggle with talking but i will match your energy pretty soon as long as we have anything in common!

see you next week